more party pictures

Pretty Birthday messages on the wall. Please click for full view :)

my addition was the brick in the wall one and the sean is the coolest (original i know, but i had been drinking)

My beautiful panda!

Brad, Me and Sean

hope life is going well
xoxoxo
Vanessa

Pictures of Party :)

Pictures of the evening part one
in no particlar order
(these aren't mine. mine are still on film, in the camera)
(back of chad, Sean, Antony, Brad)

(David, Me, Suni)

(Back : Brad, Andrew, Sean, Me, David, Sarah, Antony)
Us outside sitting on couches

night was good :)
details if you want them!
xoxox
V

**party time**

Random general bullet pointed update

• Work is no fun when your airconditoning goes off. Exspecially when you have 70 or so people in your office, made of glass (the office not the people) i saw the temparture gauge on my clock hit 31 yesterday. icky.
  
• Real groovy is great for a) mindless wandering, B) seeing friends who you haven't seen for a while who randomly pop up in your life once in a while in the weirdest of place (bus stops, uni classes, real groovy staff... Waves to Ollie** *wanna know more about this guy asl :P) c) finding CDs of bands you've wanted for years in the $4.00 Sale bin. - Letters to Cleo! a little more pop that i thought they were going to be but lovely nonethe less
• Stomach cramps. I hate being a girl. they hurt like a bitch
• ramdom texts from old friends - Amie may be joining me tonight (see next bullet point for tonight info) haven't seen her since alex's 18th. She is my favourite of Alex's very many ex's. absoutly georgous... (may be a hint of a girl crush there) but i won't hold my breath, as she tends to be one of those people who gets busy. a lot. she lives far away so i dont' get to see her very often, so i hope it doesn't fall through
• Sean's 21st. he is famous for his parties. Party videos on his my space (ignore my boyfriend sucking face with his ex please... lol) the last one i went to a window got broken by chads butt. wee!. i'm really looking forward to it. A chance to let my hair down so to speak. fun. drinking. hopefully some kissing (of my boyfriend of course!) i plan on sueducing him hehe. (cause i've never done that at seans place before hehe)
  
• I have brought a disposable camera to document the event. if they are any photos worth displaying they will probably go up in a week or so
• I brought my paints out and let my creative fingers do the walking... and painting a korn inspired artwork for him for his birthday gift...
  " Day, is here fading.That's when, I would say.I flirt with suicide.Sometimes kill the pain.
  I can always say.'It's gonna be better tomorrow'.Falling away from me."
• birthday gift for my brother is sitting waiting to be wrapped on the table. it was his 12th birthday yesterday, so i got hima paul jenngings (sp) book of stories. get him back into books again. books are good.
  
• Neverwhere. by the same guy who did the sandman comics. watched the BBC seris of it. has fran from black books and the beautiful girl from a knights tale. recommmended watching. see andrew to borrow dvd.
  
• thats about all. enjoy your weekend people. i know i will

xoxoxoox
Vanessa

**it was amazing**

t was absoloutly amazing. fantastic. one of the best nights of my life!! i was excited all day.... went and picked up andrew from his work with sunita. on the bus up there we found out that a few other friends of ours (Sean, and his friend Chad and his girlfriend Laura) were going to the concert to. we arranged to meet in the line later...

Andrew, Suni and I got to the venue at about 6:15Pm. the door opened at 7. there was already a line waiting outside. but we were pretty close to the front.it was Nowhere near as bad as for the HIm one. (we got there at approx the same time as the Evanascence one, and the like was about 60 meters longer!!) We got in and waited at another set of doors (to the general admission area) until about 7:30pm.while i was waiting in this line, Andrew went to the souivernear stand brought me a teeshirt. but it doesn't actually have their new zealand concert written on it. i was gutted. but thats okay. I got a teeshirt none the less. and if no-one belives me well i have tickets to prove it. there was a beautiful hoodie. they wanted 70 dollars for it thou!!!

got in and were about 3 or four meters from the stage. right in the front of this raised platform bit,so we had a perfect unobstructed view of the stage!! it was amazing.

Redline played as the opening act. they were okay. not really my type of music though. a up and comming new zealand band.

then Evanescence came on at about 9:15pm. she sung amazingly. was wearing a wicked black dress, with tall boots and red and black striped stocking, and some funky armbands. did quite a few songs from her new album but also did some olds ones. Played lithaiam (sp) and then 'good enough' on the piano. i cried. it was so pretty, beautiful, soulful and moving. i've never got emotional about a song like that before... *but don't tell anyone* the set wasn't very long. it was over by about 10:45pm but for the oncore she played my immortal on the piano and another song...

it was great. fantastic. if you get a chance to go to a concert of hers, i totally recommend it. there was quite a few people. but there sold out concerts is actually tonight so that'll be competely packed.

*Tonights the Night**

this day is going so long.

its is concert day.

the day where i will see the most beautiful woman ever. In the flesh. from afar i'm afraid. Hopefully not too far. but i will seeher. and hear her sing. i am so excited.

the day is dragging, like the day before christmas for a 5 year old child

i am excited.

i have more poems to publish (they are at home)

written in the mist of darkness which was 1Am last night (this morning?)

i haven't had much luck sleeping lately. but i improved my poetry on the emo-ness of the other day.

Lunch time.

Write more later.

**rumor is that it 'snows' on stage**

Poetry at 3Am

this is 110% emo. and i'm not afraid to admit it.
but yeah.
poem.
below.
do with it what you will. (well actually don't do anything with it please)
me

Another piece of a soul rots, when your face fills my mind
And although you've been 'pushed back', your never far behind.
You bruised & shattered & broke me. Lie,stole & Abused
But nothing seems to matter, to the world - i am used
Take everything you want from me, and take a little more
you are out of sight now, but I cannot forget you - Whore!
(you tasted my skin, we shared bed and sweat)
now everything is out, for the world to see
you leave & walk away unscathed, its not that easy for me.

**uneventful**

my muse is gone.
can you help me find her/him?
its driving me mad.
i tried painting. it came out like crap
i tried poetry. i couldn't get any words to flow.
:( it makes me sad.
so yeah. meh.

xoxox
me

**2 years**

We've been together two years.
its lovely. nice to know that someone is there for you unconditonally.
its makes you feel nice and good and fuzzy inside.
weee!
have an audit in may. work is totally crazy.
caught up with sam on sunday.
nothing else really exciting happened on the weekend.
its nice to have a quiet one though,
and i enjoyed spending time with my boy :)
hope everyones week has started well.

**The First Page **

i've joined in the craize. and have just finished my first page. enjoy
the hair and folded flower are not normally there
xoxoxo
Vanessa

**Symond Street Shadows**

umm. well i'm feeling rather meh at the moment. as a result of the heat, 'friends', new meds, work and recieving a couple of things in the mail which kinda upset me but i'll survive. theres too many emos for me to add myself to the mix... so here is the first poem i have written in about six months. and well you can tell i've lost my poetry mojo/muse thou. Insperation walking up K Road to meet Andrew one evening. Advice, critisitim, and ideas to change it (its not finished as yet) would be greatly appericated.

Hope everyone has a good weekend
Me

Symond Street Shadows

6 foot 4
a lollipop in your mouth
(i know you wish you were sucking something else)

we all live this lie. Play our parts on the world stage

wearing a heart on your sleeve
along with piercings and tattoos
(hand in hand)
not with a lover, but someone who 'matches' you

live this lie. its all we know. play your part. we are so good at it

not matter how fast you go
(rythmitic feet on pavement)
you'll never run away
and no matter how hard you 'smile'
(its painted on, like the eyeliner)
shes not going to stay

All we do is lie. Lie to live
Pay a part. stay safe behind your mask.