**I don't need Love when i have drugs like you**

arugh!
its complicated. and by it's i mean life.
knee cake is tasty.

**give me life, give me pain & give me myself again**

much has changed
much has stayed the same.

i'm in a 7 bedroom flat in ponsonby now. its weird. and ironically somewhat lonely at times.

i feel numb somewhat.

and in limbo.
and i think i need it.
i do however not want this feeling to last forever.

ummm. yeah... life is meh

Me

nom nom nom. i has many corns. nom nom nom.

lol cats. go and have a look. you know you want to.

life is a bit of a knotted ball of string at the moment.

it has involved: drunken bowling, pink watermallon drinks, weird erotic dreams, many a expensive bus ride, 3 hour server outtages, packing, flat hunting, sleeping, amongst other things.

in the near future incudes : a trip to the library, moving flat stuff, more sleeping, more drinking, meeting new people, catching up with old people.

ummm in the far far future i hope it holds : travel, love, excitement, forgiveness, acceptance, and wisdom.

theres some dark circles and some dark holes popping up, and a lot of the time i feel like i've found my high school happy mask, and am wearing it 24/7. i still don't believe the shock of some things has actually hit me yet. i'm scared for when it does.