**Spinning in Lace Skirts**

I have the most loviest kindest bestest boyfriend ever **Hugs Andrew**
Having $$ domestics at the moment between myself and my bank account . and had to spend my Evanescence Ticket money on bills and doctors apointments, and was most upset that i wasn't going to be able to see the woman who is my idol (well as idol- as you can get i suppose) Amy Lee. *squeeee!* but he brought tickets today.
I know it takes more for a boyfriend to buy things to make a good one. but it is just such a sweet and romantic gesture.
Other than that life is pretty mundane. Work. sleep work.
Friday night was spent dancing to salsa music and drinking pashfruit magrita from a jug
watching friends get thrown in the air in a metal ball thing...
Watching waking life... with 'refreshments' on saturday.
Hanging out at the beach with Sean, Suni, Sarah, Andrew and James saturday afternoon **movinpic icecream mmmmmm tasty!!!**
I caught up with Vic on Sunday night, which was good cause i haven't seen her for ages. shes pretty much *besides Sam and Sean* that i still keep in contact with from high school *not a huge fan of my high school years!*
Saw Immy on Monday morning, not for very long but she still exist *yay!*
I have a fridge that doesn't leak... YAY!.
and tuesday back to work...

xoxoxo
V

**taking the time**

anniversary present post. so if you know andrew don't you tell now.. its a supprise :P

i'm going to get engraved on the inside "1:00Pm - 11/02/05" 'Our Time' as that was the time and day of our first date. to corney?? i dunno. i wish i could have got him the watch that he really really wanted. but the stupid company wouldn't ship it here unless it was over $100 US. and welll. i can't afford that right now. or at all pretty much. but this one is nice. i like it. i really home he does too.

anyway my long weekend has been lovely so far.
i've stuck to my new years resoultion. i managed to drink, not get drunk i went to a mexican bar and had a margarita jug. and danced to spanish and salsa music. it was great. :) i also watched a wonderful insightful life altering movie as well called "waking Life" i recoomend everyone see it. it is amazing. very very philosophical. and trippy. its in cartoon. but couldn't have been made any other way...

xoxoxoxo
Vanessa

**In the quiet**

me.
mylife can be summed up in one word at the moment. Humid.
oh the joys of wearing corprate clothing, which for me is pretty much all black. all the time.
its a silly thing to do. when your air con is on and off half the day.
and the heat outside is remisant of a bakers oven
but what is this pysdo goth to do?
go to supre and buy herself some 'pink-ness' i don't think so!! hehe

i have a pretty, insightful, and just general 'aww' picture. this is on a lampost. on symond street.
i like it. i want to write foamy sayings on stickers, and place them in public places. like "foamy - our lord and master" "foamy says : i'll poak you in the eye with a really hot french fry" or just pretty-song lyrics "why bother bothering just for a poem or another sad song sing", but without further ado here is my 'taken on my cell phone so really bad quality' picture

well i like it.

ummm... not much else to say about my life really. its contains work. sleep. eat. pretty much. i'm supposed to be going out clubbing on friday (i'm getting too old for this.. and i haven't been clubbing since my birthday... and that was only one. for like an hour) and then the next morning...on a piercing date with sean, sunita, sarah, toby and andrew on saturday. i don't know if its going to happen (there'll probably be some friday night hangovers lingering) but i hope so. i just need to decide what to get pierced. weeee. i love putting more holes in me!! :P i'm a sieve!!

hope life is going good with you's
xoxoxoxo
Vanessa

**big day in**

The big day out has returned.
I say to myself every year since i was about 15 that i will go.
every year i dont.
this year it is hosting one of the more interesting bands :tool. i'd pay 100 bucks to see them on thei own.
but yeah. the big day out, has kind of lost its 'ooooohhh i wannna go' appeal to it now.
suppose thats the curse of getting old
but it seems to be invaded by really bad rappers, even worse punk bands *cough* my chemical romance *cough* and worst of all... the emo-boppers.
i'm taking them a step forward and calling them emo boppers now. more than just your typical dark eyelined emo. these ones comes with a "i'm indivuial" mentailty but don't quite realise that when glassons and supre start stocking your type of clothing. it ant orginial anymore honey!
but yeah. i saw two emo-boppers today in town. two. a grand total of two!!
the rest are obviously jumping up and down with their friends MCR. *icky*

I know you can probably add all the arguments here to the fact that i am eagerly awaiting my pay day so i can buy my Evanescence ticket. but at least that has the *giant sigh of relief* a R18 rating. no 15 year olds 'i've felt all of lifes pain' emo-boppers alloweed. woopee! that alone put them up a notch. not to mention that fact that *sigh* amy lee... *awww* its looks like that on woman that make them attractive to me... lol

other than that... welll... ummm... life is pretty... blah.
i'm not feeling so hot *physically* as you probably noticed from the *seasickness entry* which doesn't seem to have gone away. I had scary i'm preganant dreams last night so i'm hoping to goddess that it isn't a bad oman or something. *crosses fingers and toes* I am in no way ready to be mummy yet.

speaking of parents. serindipty came and visited me last night. andrew, sean, and i were heading up to real groovy. much to my annoyance because i wanted a tim tam iced chocolate. but anyway waiting in theline for sean to get his dvd *waking life* everyone must see apprently. Who should i bump into buy OLLI! argh!! *giggles* this is a guy who has been in and out of my life *in no way romantically* since i finished school. i met him on the bus that i caught everyday to work, we started chatting and became sorta mates. he worked at lynmall same as me but at sounds. the music store. then we lost touch, and he had been tranfered to ECM in westcity. where i bumped into him one day while shopping. Say hi. and didn't see him until last year when *guess who was in one of my short lived uni classes* it was a plesent suprise. i then quit uni and felt guilty so didn't go back and tell him, then yesterday i saw him at real groovy. wow. hehe. its nice having those type of people. than even thou you don't see for ever and every. you still say hello and have the same sorta 'vibe' around the two of you when you do me. the reason why this relates to parents was i saw a picture of his SON! named Owen. SO SO SO SOOOO cute!!! (almost as cute as his dad heheh... *i'm teasing... calm down people :P)

xoxoxo
Vanessa

** Can the british partayyyy?**

That Spongbob what a bad influence!!

Sean, the british dreadded guy (who was super fun!) Me and suni!

The british yardie!!

Pictures from the xmas/new year period

*Your Easy to read... but the book is boring me**

i am i'm afraid, lacking in my usual psydo gothic, perky self at the moment. blame hormones, life, and the fact that i tend to attract the people most likely to hurt me into my life.. nessa is not a happy panda... and my reasons are real, not petty like "oh my god my mum won't buy me a car, i'm going to kill myself!" *insert tears falling from behind a dyed fridnge, tinged with gray* "Oh my god my eyeliner is running... i'm going to kill myself" ... but yeah... *cough* *change subjects*...

I'm not exactly sure why i'm publishing it in a blog, i mean... i'm starting to think that pouring your feelings out online isn't exactly a good thing (and immy don't worry, this isn't because of what happened), i've come to realise that the internet can be an evil manipulative whench. who suduces you, and grabs a hold of you, sucks you dry, spits you out and leaves you to die.

Take a friend of mine at the moment. Her boyfriend has discovered WOW (we are of course reffering to World of warcraft here) an evil little shit of a game thats more addictive than chocolate, niccotine, and cocain combind. there relationship is on a one way course to splitsville, as his day consits of getting up, complaining that he's tired, going to work, coming home, complaining that he's tired, (a shower now is opitional) then getting on the computer and playing wow, Getting dinner that girlfriend has cooked, returning to wow, then heading to sleep at 3 or 4am.

there is however a good side i suppose. keeping in contact with people (people locoally shouldn't count. we should all leave our homes, ventor into this wicked wild world and visit each other!- face to face. in person!) i'm reffering to people on the other side of the world. Like patrick, who i talk about magic with, and Steph, who is going to have a tequila sunrise for me in a london pub when she gets there in 10 days!!! i'm living my dreams through her vicariously at the moment.

Well i need to balance the bad side of the net and so my list goes on

• kiddie porn being acessable to the sickos of the world. anyone who looks at, creates, or worst of all lets there kids be in, deserves to die a slow and painful death
• stalkers, and sickos. self expalintory
  
• Popup adds.
  
• scammers, and junk filling up inboxs. you don't get "give me your bank account and i'll deposit 40 million dollors and flee the country and share it with you" letters in your good old fashioned mailboxes

good side

• discovering new cartoons like Foamy, which introduce me to new singers like my current fav Emilie Autumn, she is an amzing beautiful singer, and is georgous. known as victorian industrial and sings like an angel accomping by her own violin playing. It reminds me of a summmer thunderstorm. walking through damp bush, and smelling honey and beeswax. its soulful, mistyfil, and breathtaking. "its raining, and the stars are falling from the sky, outside the wind I know is cold" (title is kudos to her) I'll even give another shamless plag and insert her website http://www.emilieautumn.com/
  (Immy, i'm going to attempt to put it on a CD for you because i know that you will ADORE but i have to convery them first... :( cause they are some weird format)
  

but thats about all.
i remember life without the internet. the sad thing is my children won't...

i'm rambling. but thats okay. i have an excuse.
i also have a mask to finish.

xoxo
Vanessa

I see... Amy Lee & Evanescence

AM SO EXCITED.
HAVE JUST LEARNED THAT EVANESCENCE WILL BE RETURNING TO NEW ZEALAND.
1 SHOW ONLY. 21ST FEB. AT THE SAINT JAMES IN AUCKLAND.
ANY AMY LEE FANS KEEN TO JOIN ME?
I LIVE ABOUT A 15 MINUTE WALK (YES WALK NOT DRIVE) FROM THE VENUE. AND ANY1 WHO WISH TO SEE IT ARE WELCOME TO CRASH ON MY FLOOR :) if your not a crazymass murder that is... lol.
I AM A VERY VERY HAPPY PANDA RIGHT NOW :)
I MISSED THEIR LAST CONCERT, BUT NOW I CAN SEE THEM. YAY. TICKETS GO ON SALE ON THE 12 OF JAN. AND BELIEVE ME. I WILL BE FIRST INLINE.
HEHE. I SOUNDS LIKE A HYPO GIRL ON SUGAR. BUT I HAVEN'T HAD SOMETHING TO BE EXCITED ABOUT LIKE THIS FOR AGES.
YAYAYAYYAYYYAYA
*DOES THE HAPPY DANCE*