Monday, April 30, 2007

**in the dreaming**

It was like watching a film, in sepia at first... Out from a vehicle of unknown type came a group of men and woman. They varied in age from the late teens to all the way up to gray haired days. Walking across a dirt road and towards a set of wooden stairs that was the doorway to the bush. Poetry books were handed to a few of the empty handed people, worn, underground copies. Some were handwritten as the outlawing of poetry had meant most published works had been removed from society. Indulging in poetry and Literature was the groups reason for meeting in the dimming twilight under a starless sky. To temp and tease the mind with forbidden flowing words and written scenes. Silently they began to walk. Down the stained steps and into the boding woods.

A male in his 30s was the head of the single file. Chalk in one hand, a torch in the other. Behind him was another middle aged man with a rifle on his back. This is what it took to enjoy what you loved... He got slightly ahead of the group, turning off the path This was where the surrounding foliage started to get thicker. Dense. Darker. He marked a tall punga with a white symbol, and headed around the tree. The land slopped and the group (somewhat spread out by now), began to wander downwards. One stopped by the edge of the hill, and starred. Vast and lush bush, but with a hint of decay was below. It stretched on for miles, though in this light (or lack theirof) the eyes couldn't see that far.

A flat patch of earth , less trees, and a natural central walk way past half a dozen large rocks, was come across by our excursionists. Look closer my dear. Not rocks. Gravestones. Some appeared new, as if they hadn't aged a day. While others were merely piles of stones acting and a reminder that this was a souls resting place. A large dark ethnic stone, with blood red korus scarred into its service Stood apart from the rest, against the black. It was breathtaking, Maori words covered it surface with grief and grace...The air was cooler here. Thicker. Fill with something else. They all could feel it. Knowledge that there was more here, more than the 6 grave markers claimed there be. Long flowing Feminine skirts brushed pass stone “Blessed be” and whispers of thanks, with estrogen aftertastes, warmed the night breeze.

The man with the chalk is no longer at the front now, they all know which way to go . Well they should, two men head left down a stone staircase that appears suddenly, as if it knew they were coming and wanted to surprise them by materialising from the hillside. “your not supposed to go that way” they called. The voices were ignored. The rest head down to the right hand side. Deep down, underground like entering inside the chest of the earth/ The walls are Damp and made entirely of unpolished raw granite . Pictures, carvings or sorts cover the walls, the details hidden in the ebonyness. By unspoken agreement, the group splits into two. Males towards the left and down a long straight passage. Five females continue on, to the right of the passages fork. A slight incline, turn an unfamiliar corner... And something happens....

stay tuned for the next exciting episode.

Sunday, April 22, 2007

**Emo Parties**

Emo Party

a room with smoke
flashing lights
a black ballon or two
emo music
and strangers
i know there faces.
know there names
and I know there place
in the high school hirachy
feels like i haven't aged a day
but it was 4 years ago
since i saw these faces.
eyeliner. stripes. badges
a theme hides oneself
tequila shots lined up along the bar
liquid death played its part too
birthday girl
i love her to pieces
but the surrounding faces
neither know me.
nor care

Saturday, April 14, 2007

**Cutting Caleb Keys**

I've just came back from the book launch. it was interesting.
It inspired me to want to write.
To suceed.
To have goals and follow them.
He read part of his book and i want to know more. i couldn't afford to buy a copy :( but will do as soon as i can!).
Lots and lots of bottles of wine. everywhere.
And people in there late 20's and early 30's trying to outdo each other in coversation about who knows who, and what they do for a living.
Andrews workmate, who single, doesn't get out much and is currently writing a romance novel about a linedancing policemen, was on her 5th glass of red when we left. she was a lovely sweet tipsy thing. it was interesting.
i like to watch at thoses type of parties, because i KNOw i don't fit in. and i don't mind. i just drunk a glass of wine, patted a jack russel that was running around and starred at all the beautiful sucessful people in the yard, hoping that i'll be like them (in part) in a few years to come.
i'm going to polietly decline the invitation for clubbing to night and hopefully curl up in bed with my boyfriend and a dvd.
night all.
you are all lovely, beautiful, amazing human beings :)
sweet dreams

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

**Karma Scented**

Karma Scented

candle flickers
air aromatic
lit with karma scent
body empty
sinking in
murging with the warmth
going under (thats okay)
float away (thats okay)
depart
dripping,
droplets run down
past a purple butterfly
bare back turned towards the mirror
deny insecurities
while soft cotton covers
vunerbility
and she returns
to the reality
with her karma scented skin.

yeah... nothing much else really.
Pans Labryinth is the shit :) go see it. NOW!
its in spanish. sexiest language ever.... :P

Sunday, April 01, 2007

**oh what i miss**

it is now sunday morning, so ignore the title.
went to a party up in helensville, was invited by Amie a friend of mine (whos is actually my brothers ex. but we won't hold that against her!!)
the place was lovely. out in the wopp wopps
you could see all the stars in the sky. so beautiful. i miss looking up and see them everywhere and just looking and starring
fog, slowly advancing like a animal stalking pray, over rolling hills
it hid the line of street lights far away. one by one.
drinking punch. mmmm. punch... tipsy punch
i felt old.
i realised how pussywipped my brother is around his girlfriend.
i danced.
and fed a labrodor called Taz chippies.
met some more of Amie's friends. Amies friends are nice *but amie is the bestest :P*
I miss having friends like that. close friends. that you know will be there.
i felt like a bad friend thou. i got a call at about 2:30 from my friend who lives near my place in the city. huge boyfriend dramas. she was inconsoulable. and my cellphone coverage kept cutting out. i felt so bad for being away when someone needed me. cause i've never been the one that people call on when they need support. i'm always the last to know.
there was a fatgray tiger cat in a box. all night. he just sat in the box. go cat!
more drinking.
some boobs were flashed (not mine)
and a car almost hit a fence.
oh how different parties are out in the country.
there was another cat with a mouse. i think he also chased a cricket and bug.
single bed sleeping for two. not the most confertable thing in the world.
i woke up to rain on the roof this morning
that is one of the best sounds in the world.
i miss that too - living in an apartment where my roof is someones floor.
i miss a lot.
but i have a lot to be thankfor for as well.